—What I mean is, I'd felt this way even before the full moon and the bond... [But Drew probably already knew that, didn't he? Well, somehow Toby still felt it merited clarification. Though he's a little afraid to ask, he decides to anyway:]
You don't suppose the bond would just exacerbate those feelings, do you? That it might help them along?
[Because he knows that what he has with Drew is a gigantic mess; it had been exactly that since the very start. There's a whirlwind of feelings inside him when it comes to Drew. A want and need for him. Caring and concern. A love that is different from his love for Dorian. A desire to be with him, and the knowledge that he can't be. The fear of rejection, the fear of Drew's rage and hatred. So many warring feelings that it's probably better not to focus on them at all because things are confusing enough without doing so.]
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You don't suppose the bond would just exacerbate those feelings, do you? That it might help them along?
[Because he knows that what he has with Drew is a gigantic mess; it had been exactly that since the very start. There's a whirlwind of feelings inside him when it comes to Drew. A want and need for him. Caring and concern. A love that is different from his love for Dorian. A desire to be with him, and the knowledge that he can't be. The fear of rejection, the fear of Drew's rage and hatred. So many warring feelings that it's probably better not to focus on them at all because things are confusing enough without doing so.]